....is probably here. So much has left since I last wrote an entry on this, and I haven't kept as up to date as I should have, but I reckon you would have all got bored of hearing how happy he makes me! Despite this I told him today that I think it should finish. I don't want it to finish, but I really think I'm close to losing the plot. I'm getting so jealous over him, and overposseissve. I need to know where he is every minute of every day and who he is with. If hes not speaking ot me I want to know why, and I'm sick of looking at my phone every minute we're apart to see if he has text. He is my whole world at the moment, and thats not fair on me and its not fair on him. He needs his freedom, he doenst need two women in his life keeping tbs on him. an he's my boss, and I cant help but feel like I'm draggin him down past the professional level.

I really really do love him, but I cant do this anymore, for my sanity and his. I spend my whole life at the mo on the verge of fricking tears!! I just hope that we can stay mates, because right now he is my best mate in the whole world, and I know that if I ever need anythin off him He'll do all he can to help me.

Thanks for all the good times babe. Sorry. I love you x